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Randomness and elections
Dec. 14th, 2019 07:39 amLast week, my Tarot card was 'Death' - the card of transformation. And I really felt transformed in a number of ways, the most significant being finding that I had the courage to actually speak to people at work about things, without putting them off. This is much more significant than it sounds, believe me. My capacity for prevarication is, historically, almost boundless, mostly because my tendency towards introversion and anxiety about making a fool of myself convince me that I don't know what I'm doing. However, the Director has put me in charge of a piece of work (let's say I'm the PM on it, because that's how I'm approaching it) that involves a number of people doing quite small bits of work that could have a big impact overall, and I want to be worthy of the task. Which means I have to talk to the people about the things. So, I am and it was a lot easier than my introversion and anxiety told me it would be, thanks to this transforming courage. Go, Death!
This week, my card is the 10 of Wands, which I took to be an indication that I needed to pause and consolidate the gains from last week. Which, workwise, I have done. I did more of the talking to people - although I did also put it off because other things kept getting in the way, but I did it in the end. At home, however, it's not gone so well.
The husband was telling me about something he'd watched about the riots in 1981. My initial instinct was to begin 'Rosa-splaining', as if I knew more about it than he did. Well, I managed to avoid that! What I did was give a vague acknowledgement, whilst trying to find something to say that would encourage him to carry on talking that wasn't either dismissive or patronising. Unfortunately, I took too long and he stormed off in a huff. Which is understandable. Hopefully, today, I can mend some bridges.
Also on the subject of work, my mentor is leaving to go to the Other university. I really wish them well. It's been an interesting relationship and has certainly given me a lot of encouragement. They are always so enthusiastic!
And then there's the election. I'm taking a non-dualist approach and saying, 'it is what it is'. There are all sorts of analyses that can be done with voting figures, but the result is the result. Well, now that Boris has his majority, let's see how easy it is to 'get Brexit done'!
This week, my card is the 10 of Wands, which I took to be an indication that I needed to pause and consolidate the gains from last week. Which, workwise, I have done. I did more of the talking to people - although I did also put it off because other things kept getting in the way, but I did it in the end. At home, however, it's not gone so well.
The husband was telling me about something he'd watched about the riots in 1981. My initial instinct was to begin 'Rosa-splaining', as if I knew more about it than he did. Well, I managed to avoid that! What I did was give a vague acknowledgement, whilst trying to find something to say that would encourage him to carry on talking that wasn't either dismissive or patronising. Unfortunately, I took too long and he stormed off in a huff. Which is understandable. Hopefully, today, I can mend some bridges.
Also on the subject of work, my mentor is leaving to go to the Other university. I really wish them well. It's been an interesting relationship and has certainly given me a lot of encouragement. They are always so enthusiastic!
And then there's the election. I'm taking a non-dualist approach and saying, 'it is what it is'. There are all sorts of analyses that can be done with voting figures, but the result is the result. Well, now that Boris has his majority, let's see how easy it is to 'get Brexit done'!
